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AX, born Ax Verheij, 24 August 1989, Zoetermeer, Holland.
At age 3 he moved to his mother’s birthplace, the island Curacao, with his mom. Since than, that is where he lived all of his life until up to this date.
Unfortunately, His father committed suicide when he was only 5 years old, which of course had a really strong impact on him.
“My mother used to tell me a lot about my dad, what kind of person he was and stuff you know? And she told me that he always used to say that he was sure I would be an artist when I grow up. A singer, an actor or something like that, he just knew it. That s[**]t means a lot to me man, it gives me a feeling like, this is fate right here!”
Sure, I miss my father a lot. The thing is, I barely even remember him clearly. I was only 5 years old when he did it. Vague memories help me get by sometimes when I want to remember him. And of course, pictures.
For some reason what I do remember almost perfectly is his funeral. I didn’t quite understand what was going on exactly at that time. I remember asking my uncle to pick me up and help me throw roses into his coffin, just as everyone else was doing. I thought he was asleep or something. Now that I’m grown up, it’s definitely difficult handling with it.
And that’s where rapping comes into the picture.
Those emotions and feelings and (sometimes) hatred, I put them all into one track. This is where I get my inspiration from; Problems at home, like for example talking my mother into letting me do my own thing, and to basically f[**]k school, while she doesn’t agree one bit. She was raised with the mindset that people need to go to school and than you work and work until you make it to the point that you’re able to be financially free, or if you’re s[**]t outta luck like most of the people out there, remain stuck in that boring ass job all your life. That is definitely not for me man! I'm not saying it's not the right way, but it's just not me.
I have a daughter right now! I’m 21 years old, I need to make something of myself before she grows up and realizes that her dad’s just a bum!
That’s another part of my life that I am very grateful for. My daughter, Jennah Gabriela Verheij, born 30 March 2009. She’s literally one of the most important reasons why I want to get out of this “regular” lifestyle. She plays a big part in all of this. She’ll definitely be able to say one day, "That’s my dad up there doing his thing on the stage!"
I started rapping when I was 16. Went to this friend of mine that lived in the neighborhood, and he was making beats on the software program “Fruity loops” at the time. He used to write his own songs on those beats. I began to like it too, so I went home with a few of his beats on CD and started writing on these instrumentals. I remember blasting the volume up to the maximum when I was in my room. I’ve written like a dozen tracks and everyday I used to go to his house and we recorded some of them on this tiny little pc microphone, which he taped to the wall. We could only record for like 20 seconds and then it would stop, and he’d press record again, and so on and so on. It was pretty f[**]king ghetto man, [laughs]. But I loved it! We used to buy some weed, get high, listen to those beats and write on the spot. Of course we’d listen to Tupac also, and Eminem and all those old school Wu-Tang tracks. It was pretty awesome. Thinking back right now, I can see how much I’ve changed, the progress I’ve made in this rap s[**]t and everything. It’s just beautiful man.
A year went by, and after all that writing, I’ve stored all those lyrics up in my closet. Just rapping and rhyming, alone, in my room. Standing in front of the mirror “performing”, while the instrumental was playing in the back round. Lip-syncing to my favorite songs; that was my specialty. ( I still do actually )
To make a long story short, I was later discovered by many other local rappers and artists and we made a lot of music, but I never felt the 100% satisfaction I wanted to feel in my music. It was too “Local” for me. I was aiming for that International s[**]t, that’s why I only write & record songs in English on an Island that's almost unknown to the US. Down here in Curacao the main language is a creole mixture of spanish & portuguese.
I need to get my emotional side out. I’m not doing this just because everyone is doing it out there, and wants to be this famous rapper, rapping in clubs and stuff. Yes, I do dream about becoming this famous rapper, performing live; worldwide & earning a lot of money for doing what I love etc, of course. I mean come on man! who doesn’t, right?! Dare to dream! Live that s[**]t! But the main thing for me is, using this outlet in a way that I can feel free, mentally and emotionally.
A simple thing like getting it all out on paper takes a pretty big load off my shoulders!
Writing makes me feel unstoppable; I can challenge myself with it. Without the ability to write, without a studio and a microphone to unwind myself, I’d probably drink myself to death or something. It’s kind of hard to understand for people that never went through s [**] t in their lives. But that’s exactly why I create these songs! To spread out the message of what not only I've been through in life, but also a lot of other people around the world that can relate to my music. I know that sometimes it takes a while to adapt to new things. But just give it a chance and learn from it! Try relating to it!
Oh and 1 last thing…
This is where I’m coming from. What I write about is what I actually go through on a day to day basis.
It’s how I see s [**] t from my point of view. I would never force someone to believe the same things I believe, or have the same opinions that I have. That’s just impossible! That wouldn’t be fair to nobody. This is just me.
So I'd appreciate it if you'd keep your hating bulls [**] t stuffed in your panties!
And if you do like my music, keep on supporting!
I’ll most definitely be grateful for it!
God bless.
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